just finish watching butterfly（蝴蝶）.
not everyone will like it,
cos its a story of a lesbian woman.
but no harm watching it.
just search it on youtube.
(:

只要去相信，就会幸福。
爱，可能，放弃所有的一切都是值得的。

人，是不是应该更宽容易些？
难道同性恋就不算真爱吗？

//runs

WOOHOOO!
finally went swimming!!
with angeline boh!
the sun was good!
:D :D :D

so paisae to msg the wrong person.
i freaking send the sms to angie when i kept telling myself not to send to her!
its for somebody else.
oh motherfuc*ing ch*eby*.
LOL.
so paisae!

blog-hop ed

l word ed
butterfly ed
but yet to complete them.

gg to swim again tml.
alone.

meeting sher and sisilia in the noon for ktv!
shiok shiok.

going to trim my hair like SOON.
its freaking ugly.
i cant stand it anymore.

be right back.

forgot what i wanna blog alr.

everytime
when i was alone,
so much thoughts keep gushing into my mind.
there's always so much left unsaid.

the lack of courage.

im late.
it wont make a difference anymore.

its time to get rid e bad habit of being late.



i wish i could reach out to you again.



"Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you had not or saying nothing and wishing you had."



smses that will never reach you.

please pardon me.
its getting late
and im getting emo.

//runs

-edit-


ytd went MOS.
michelle dua me!!
kena ps by her for almost 20 times.
haha.

anyway,
it was super crowded last night.
we had to cut quene to get in.
muahahaha.
the quene was like...
so far from the entrance!

started to like clubbing a lil more.
still not quite used to it.

saw faezah there too.
so pretty!
:D

went home at 3.
must thanks yuhchu for leaving early with us.
he could have stay on with his classmates.

well.
its just another day rotting at home.

szelee!!
u know sth,
you can always jio me out when u're bored!
cos im bored too!
ARGHGH!

//runs

hello.
im back again!

filled with boredom.

gwenyth: dont worry abt me! (:

clubbed at DXO last friday.
went town and vivo last sunday.


angie stayed on tuesday.
met michelle and rachel for diner ytd.
gg to club at MOS today.

been thinking,
what's exactly im interested in.
what i really want for myself,
what i want to be in the future.
is studying suitable for me.
or do i have any innate talent?
but obviously,
i cant find the answer.

shld i even start studying all over again?

currently jobless.
anybody have any part time or full time lobang?
please intro me okies?
thanks alot.

//runs

我自由了！
but in dilema of where im heading to next.
Uni is definitly out of question.
im expecting to do real bad for it.
shithead!

from tml onwards.
im gonna start afresh.

sth inspiring again.

because im depressed again.


here:

$20.00
Sometimes we just need to be reminded!

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill.
In the room of 200,
he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this.
He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.
He then asked, "Who still wants it?"

Still the hands were up in the air.

Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"
And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.
He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
"Now, who still wants it?"

Still the hands went into the air

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.
No matter what I did to the money,
you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives,
we are dropped,
crumpled,
and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make
and the circumstances that come our way.
We feel as though we are worthless.

But no matter what has happened or what will happen,
you will never lose your value.
Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased,
you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.

The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know,
but by WHO WE ARE.

You are special
Don't EVER forget it.

If you do not pass this on,
you may never know the lives it touches,
the hurting hearts it speaks to,
or the hope that it can bring.

Count your blessings, not your problems.

If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

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failure.

//runs

something inspiring.
esp for people in depressing state ( like me).

----------------------------------------------

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.
He's always there for her.
She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything,
including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"
The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too,
and refused to marry him.
Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying.
"Just take care of my eyes dear."

This is how human brain changes when the status changed.
Only few remember what life was before,
and who's always been there even in the most painful situations.

Life Is A Gift

Today before you think of saying an unkind word -
Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food -
Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife -
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion.

Today before you complain about life -
Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you complain about your children -
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean or sweep -
Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive -
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job -
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger orcondemning another -
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down -
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around.

Life is a gift, Live it, Enjoy it, Celebrate it, And fulfill it.

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thanks to all who cares.
(:

ijc gp tutors are so hardworking.
i should feel ashamed of myself.

told mum abt my plans after my A level.
as in how im going to handle this stupid failure.
she doesnt seems to disagree with me.
so i guess,
i should just go according to my plan.
which is take a turn back to poly.
a detour and back to the same spot.
alr have some courses in my mind alr.
hopefully i wont screwed it,
like what i've did in these 2 years.

who to blame?
myself.
for choosing it and not working for it.
DUMBASS!

well.
sloth.
it kills me and ruins my life.
im not gg to let it overwhelms me when i start afresh.
nv ever again.

tml is the first paper alr.

good luck to all my peers, my class, my study partners!
do well and make it to the U.
show them,
ijc can do it too!

but not me.
:(

//runs